Where's The Grief?

Death is an inevitable part of life, and yet it can be difficult and uncomfortable to talk about the process of grief amongst one's peers. This podcast helps shine some light into the darkest parts of our own existence and encourage a more open discussion about the effects of grief, and offers coping mechanisms to those suffering.
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Where's the Grief?

A podcast focused on grief and loss hosted by Jordon Ferber

On the whole, many cultures do not teach us how to effectively deal with the feelings that come up when a loved one dies. 

The goal of this podcast is to acknowledge the reality of intense grief , which can be a very isolating experience, and normalize the conversation about it that is very often difficult to have with friends and even family.


Jordon Ferber, a bereaved sibling himself, gives people who have experienced intense loss permission to talk about it and exemplify the possibility of  making it through the darkest periods of grief to a life full of hope and happiness.


Dec 29, 2016

In this episode Jordon sits down with Grammy nominated musician Stephan Crump, who recently released an album called Rhombal as a response to the loss of his brother to cancer.

We talk about the importance of the sibling relationship, and the twists and turns they often take, and the power of forgiveness when all is said and done. We also talk about how music can represent so many different things.

The music itself is quite moving, and the track at the end of this episode is Pulling Pillars (Outro for Patty), the song that we discuss in our interview.

From Stephan Crump on what the album is about:

"Rhombal is not about sadness. much more, its a commemoration of a death well-confronted, of a spiritual evolution i witnessed in my brother during our last days together, and of how close we left each other after what had been, for many years, a very troubled relationship."

Follow Stephan on Twitter @Crumbletones

To find out more about the album go to Stephan's website here!

You can purchase the album Here (on stephans website)

or HERE via iTunes.

Nov 21, 2016

In this episode, Jordon sits down with bartender Alissa Atkinson, whose brother James died three years ago in a freak motorcycle accident.

We talk about the difficulty of denial versus acceptance, what it means to have a vested interest in wanting to believe in otherworldly energies, and how to cope with stupid questions and/or comments that people make.

You can visit Alissa behind the bar at Precious Metal in Bushwick most nights,

Precious Metal is located at 143 Troutman St in brooklyn

Follow them on Twitter @PreciousMetalBar

Follow Alissa on  Instagram @AlissaMayNot

Oct 31, 2016

In this episode, Jordon sits down with Author Robert Goor to talk about his recently published book, "Dear Andrew . . ."

Rob was an engineer in the robotics department of GE in 1988 when his 8 year old son Andrew was struck and killed by a truck right in front of him. In the ensuing aftermath, Rob struggled to maintain his relationship to Andrew, and began writing letters to him as a way of keeping his connection and allowing him a space to express his deepest emotions.

We talk about the importance of helping others can be, and about how impactful is is to share ones own story as a way of giving others hope.

Find out more about the book HERE


Oct 13, 2016

In this episode, Jordon sits down with author Dr. Meryl Ain, who, along with her husband and brother, have written a book called "The Living Memories Project; Legacies that Last." The book is a collection of personal stories from people from every walk of life, and many types of loss represented, describing the ways in which they honor their lost loved ones, and carry their spirits forward with them.

We talk about how important it is to continue our relationships with those we have lost, and especially how helpful and healing it can be to reach out and help others along in their own journeys towards acceptance and hope.

A Living Memories Project Journal has also been recently published to encourage you to find ways to tell your own story.

Purchase the book from AMAZON HERE

CLICK HERE to go to the Facebook Page.

Follow her on twitter @DrMerylAin

Sep 28, 2016

In this episode, Jordon sits down with comedian and actress Brandy Rowell!

Brandy lost her mother when she was 22 just after graduating college, and her father 7 years later, just as she was coming into her own as a performer and as a person.

We talk about the importance of community, and the need to connect with people who not just let you be yourself, but encourage the best of you to come out.

Sep 14, 2016

Eddie Brill is a comedian, actor and writer who has spent the better part of his life making people laugh. He is also no stranger to grief and loss. Eddie has lost a sister, a brother, his father and his step-father, as well as numerous friends and colleagues.

In addition to having spent 17 years as the warm up comedian (and eventually comedy talent coordinator) for the Late Show with David Letterman on CBS, he appeared on the 4th Annual Russell Ferber Foundation Comedy Fun!draiser, (I'm well aware that my families annual benefit show is not nearly on the same level as Letterman, but there are many fewer spots available.)

In this episode we talk about the accumulation of loss, and of love, and the notion that the show must go on.

Aug 15, 2016

In this episode, Jordon sits down with fellow Native NY’er, podcaster and comedian Chris Faga.

Chris’s mother died of a drug overdose when he was 16 years old, and his father died of a stroke only a few years later. We discuss how hard it is to lose your parents at such a young age, and how it can prepare you for other losses down the line.

We also talk about the death of his cousin Lisa, and how important it is to remember and share the funny stories of those who have passed.

Check out Chris’s podcast High Society Radio at

Follow Chris on Twitter @HSRadioShow

Aug 11, 2016

Oh Boy!

Well, after a much needed break, I am back.

In this episode I explain myself and my absence, and hopefully also share a few stories you may relate or connect to.

Please "like" the FB page for the show and you'll always know whats going on!


Jun 3, 2016

In this episode Jordon sits down with his good friend Joey Richardson, a comedian and musician, who wrote the theme song for this podcast.

Joey's sister Lisa died of a brain tumor almost 10 years ago now, and he has since  struggled to make sense of his artistic identity along with his personal identity.

Some of the things we discuss in this episode are survivors guilt, sibling rivalry, and the power of denial as a coping mechanism.

Check out Joey's web series Gustavo and Friends at

Also check out his other video's at

May 16, 2016

In this episode, Jordon turns the tables on Dr. Heidi Horsley, who has interviewed Jordon on both her Radio and TV shows several times.

Dr. Heidi Horsley is an internationally known grief expert, licensed psychologist, social worker and bereaved sibling.  She co-hosts the award winning television series and radio show, Open to Hope.  She is an Adjunct Professor at Columbia University and in private practice in Manhattan.  Dr. Heidi speaks throughout the country, on finding hope following trauma and tragedy.


Find out more about Heidi and all the good work she does at

Follow her on twitter

Apr 14, 2016

In this episode, Jordon Sits down with Bill Williams, Bill an accomplished director, theater teacher/acting coach, leader of creativity workshops, freelance writer, and addiction advocate. Bill's son William died of a drug overdose on December 2nd, 2012, and since that time Bill and his wife have pledged to do all they can to raise awareness about the disease of addiction and help to erase the stigma of talking about it.

In addition, Bill was also one of MY theater teachers when i was in high school, so this was a very full-circle moment that I had interviewing him.

Read about what Bill is up to at

and Find out info about his "Where There's a Will" Fund at


Mar 29, 2016

In this episode, Jordon sits down with author and sibling grief expert Elizabeth Devita Raeburn. Elizabeth was just 14 years old when her brother Ted died of aplastic anemia, a severe immune deficiency disorder. Many years later, Elizabeth wrote the book that she needed to read -The Empty Room: Surviving the Loss of a Brother or Sister at Any Age.

I have talked at length about Elizabeths book on several episodes of this podcast, and I recommend it to anyone who is dealing with sibling loss.

Her new book, The Death of Cancer is out now as well.

Check out her Amazon authors page to purchase either book!

Learn more about Elizabeth at

Mar 17, 2016

In this episode, Jordon talks with Comedian Ken Krantz, who recently lost his good friend Mandy to cancer. Ken reflects on his friendship with Amanda and her family, as he continues to process the loss after only finding out that she was sick days before her funeral.

We also discuss the power of doing truthful dark material, and how difficult it is even for those who are among the best at it.

Ken helped create a fund to help others with cancer afford their medical expenses, and he produced a comedy benefit show that he hopes to continue annually. Stay up to date by going to Take a Deep Breath and Laugh in Memory of Amanda B. Plawner


Follow Ken on Twitter @KidKrantz


Feb 29, 2016

Jordon and Harmony have been friends for nearly 10 years, having met at their local Compassionate Friends sibling group shortly after the death of Harmony's sister Hannah. Having just finished a recent run of her One-Woman-Musical "Afraid of Karma," Harmony reflects on the impact of doing the show, and what she's learned in the 10 years since her sisters death.

Find out more about her show at


Follow her on Twitter @HarmonyJupiter1

Feb 9, 2016

In this episode Jordon interviews Jeff Glasse, comedian and entrepreneur. Jeff's mother died of cancer when we was just 21 years old, and nearly 20 years later, his brother Joey met the same fate.

We talk about how experiencing grief early in life helped prepare Jeff for the losses he would experience as an adult.

We also talk about the importance of acknowledging and being grateful for having had certain experiences in the face of also being devastated by the knowledge that we will never have them again.

Jan 29, 2016

In this episode, Jordon talks with Filmmaker Molly Gandour, who was just 10 years old when her 14 year old sister Aimee died of childhood leukemia. 16 years later, working in the film industry, Molly decided to make a documentary about her own discovery and ultimate ownership of her own experience of the facts that lead to the death of her sister. The film, Peanut Gallery, follows Molly back to her childhood home as she begins to talk with her parents very openly about what happened. The film has intimate conversations at home, at the dinner table as well as family therapy sessions, and features the kind of archival footage that most families have.

In this interview, Jordon and Molly cover a lot of topics related to sibling grief, as well as what it's like to tell ones story publicly.


Follow Molly on Twitter @PeanutGallery94

Check out the trailer and get up to date info on the film at


Jan 8, 2016

In this Episode, Jordon sits down to talk with Comedian, Musician and Professional Poker Player Clayton Fletcher!

Clayton's father Ashton Fletcher, himself a well known and respected pillar of the Jazz community passed away 7 months ago, leaving behind a family that, although deep in grief, is also bolstered by having had such a magnanimous and joyful leader for so long.

We talk a lot about the structure of comedy, and how important it is to be present in one's life, regardless of the twists and turns that it takes, and to always be full of gratitude for the things that we have had.

Follow Clayton on Twitter @ClaytonComic

Find out more about the Ashton Fletcher Scholarship fund and when the next benefit show is at

Jan 8, 2016

Happy 2016! In the same way that episode Zero was an introduction to the podcast, this interlude episode is just a year end review of the work I've done thus far, and an eye towards the future.

Thanks everyone for listening, and for continuing to help me expand my audience.

Follow me on Twitter @WheresTheGrief