Where's The Grief?

Death is an inevitable part of life, and yet it can be difficult and uncomfortable to talk about the process of grief amongst one's peers. This podcast helps shine some light into the darkest parts of our own existence and encourage a more open discussion about the effects of grief, and offers coping mechanisms to those suffering.
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Where's the Grief?

A podcast focused on grief and loss hosted by Jordon Ferber

On the whole, many cultures do not teach us how to effectively deal with the feelings that come up when a loved one dies. 

The goal of this podcast is to acknowledge the reality of intense grief , which can be a very isolating experience, and normalize the conversation about it that is very often difficult to have with friends and even family.


Jordon Ferber, a bereaved sibling himself, gives people who have experienced intense loss permission to talk about it and exemplify the possibility of  making it through the darkest periods of grief to a life full of hope and happiness.


Feb 14, 2018

In this episode, I sat down with comedian Harris Stanton. Despite dealing with a number of losses, the greatest one was that of his friend and mentor Patrice. We talk about how to move on after losing one's guide, as well as how to carry the lessons we've learned forward with us.

Additionally, we touch briefly on the car accident that Harris was involved in that left Tracy Morgan and Ardie Fuqua in coma's and Jimmy Mack dead. Harris may have walked away with but a few scratches, but he also has vivid memories of the accident and it's aftermath that have stayed with him.

Check out what Harris is up to at

Get his album "Naive Innocence" from Itunes!

Jan 26, 2018

In this episode, Jordon sits down with one of his good friends from college, Kendra, who lost her brother Scott to suicide nearly 6 years ago, while Kendra herself was 7 months pregnant with her second child.

We talk about the difficulty of overcoming the stigma in talking about suicide and mental health, and the importance of understanding that depression is a disease that we ought to stop sweeping under the rug.

We also talk about the importance of gratitude, and how appreciating what we have in front of us can help gain a perspective on what we've been through.

Kendra hosts a yearly Fundraiser called "Stand Up for Scott" to raise money for the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention and the Ali Forney Center.

Jan 5, 2018

Happy New Year to everyone, I wish you all a happy, healthy and prosperous 2018 . . .

In this episode I sat down with Harriet Cabelly, author of the book, "Living Well Despite Adversity."

In her book, Harriet has compiled 36 separate interviews with people from all walks of life, each of whom has been dealt an otherwise unwinnable hand and turned it into a opportunity to serve as an example to others that we can always triumph over our situation with strong choices and unwavering followthrough.

We talk about the importance of acceptance, and giving ones self permission to feel, be it joy or despair.

Find out more about Harriet at her website Rebuild Life Now

Nov 11, 2017

Jordon sits down with voice over artist Bill Ratner, known for dozens of voices you've heard before on TV and radio, yet most famous (at least to Jordon) as the voice of Flint on the popular cartoon G.I. Joe.

Before finding success as an artist and a storyteller, Bill essentially became an orphan at an early age, losing his mother at 7, his brother at 13, and his father just 3 months after that.

For over 50 years, Bill has found ways to continually strive to bask in the light, driven by the loving and supportive environment he enjoyed for far too little time.

We talk about the helpful nature of various forms of therapy, and how our loved ones find ways to reach out and continue to be a force in our lives.

Follow Bill on Twitter @BillRatner

Check him out online and find out where you can see him live!

Oct 27, 2017

In this episode, Jordon sits down with comedian Jonas Barnes, who has dealt with multiple losses over the course of his life, but can track most of his ways of coping with life to the death of his father when he was just 13 years old. Now having outlived his dad (who died of a possible drug overdose) Jonas has a unique perspective on addiction and depression that have helped shape his view of both himself and the struggles we all face as we move through different phases of living. We talk about how to learn from our pasts in taking ownership of our futures, as well as the importance of being able to say Fuck when it really matters.

Jonas is also about to start his own podcast focused on addiction and mental health at large called The Process (keep an eye out as it's not been released yet)

Follow him on Twitter or Facebook @JonasBarnes

Follow him on Instagram at @JonasBarnesComedy

Oct 6, 2017

In this episode, Jordon sits down with comedian Doug Hildemann, who lost his wife Kelly a little over a year ago. We talk about how difficult it is to find places to work towards moving forward, while still carrying our past with us.

To find out more about where Doug is performing, check out his FB comedy page, entitled, "Not Doug Hildemann's Comedy Page or Anything."


Sep 15, 2017

Episode 50 is here!

I'm so excited that I made it to 50 episodes, and I commemorated it by recording this show LIVE at the Zinc Bar in the West Village in NYC!

I changed up the format of the show a little bit to showcase some of my favorite prior guests who actually have material in their acts about loss, followed by a panel discussion on what it's like to do that type of material, and where the desire to connect with an audience can lead you!

Featuring comedy from Janice Messitte, who lost her husband two weeks after their wedding. Follow her on FB to find out where she's performing next!

Evan Williams lost his brother when he was 19, and his mother just a year later. Check him out online and follow him on twitter and instagram!

Frank Liotti, in addition to his many live performances around the city (which can be found at his website - ) also has a podcast of his own called FAT PIG, which he co-hosts with Jessica Kirson. Listen and subscribe here!

Follow him on Twitter @Frank_Liotti

Also, many thanks to Alex and the Staff at ZINC BAR for hosting us, and to Monica from Grandaisy Bakery for feeding us!

Aug 31, 2017

Here we go again!

In the second installment of a special 2 part episode, Jordon talks more about The Compassionate Friends LIVE from their 40th National Conference in Orlando Florida.

This episode features a couple brief interviews with both Tracy Milne Edgemon, as well as her mother, Bobbi Milne talking about their experiences at the conference, and how they differed this time around based on new circumstances.

Also featured is the key note speech from the Sunday closing ceremony of the conference, delivered by Jennifer Perez of the Miami chapter.

This episode is very focused on The Compassionate Friends, a self help support group for bereaved parents, grandparents and siblings. If you are looking for support, it is always available. Find a local meeting or online support today by going to The Compassionate Friends website and reaching out.


Aug 8, 2017

In this very special episode, Jordon interviews a number of people at the 40th Annual Compassionate Friends Conference in Orlando, FL.

Jordon follows up with a couple former podcast guests on their experiences at the national conference, Keith Singer (Episode 3) and Alan Pederson (Episode 14) as well as sits down for a more extended interview with Luci Abrahamson to talk about how much being a part of TCF, and a leader at the National Conferences has impacted her path towards healing herself and others.

This is part 1 of 2 Live From the Conference, and it's all leading up to the 50th Episode, which will be taped LIVE in front of an audience at Zinc Bar on August 27th!

Check out the event page on our FB page and get tickets now!

Use Promo Code RUSSELL when buying tickets, and they're FREE!

Jun 15, 2017

This episode was a long time coming! Jordon Sits down with comedian Michael Sommerville to talk about the journey he's been on since the death of his brother Paul in 1997. As a baby, Paul had to undergo brain surgery, the complications of which ultimately led to his death. Now, almost 20 years later Michael felt like it was time to talk about it.

We talk about the importance of following your own path, and the ways in which priorities shift after a significant loss. We also talk about how to appreciate the little things along the way.

Check out Michael online at

Also, be sure to check out his new webseries called How to (blank) a man!

May 31, 2017

In this episode, Jordon sits down with fellow podcaster and comedian Keith Price. Keith's mother suffered from alzheimer's disease as well as dementia later in her life, which ultimately took her life. Finally Keith would have the time to spend with his father and have the relationship that he always wanted with him. Except that his father died just 6 weeks later. Despite not having the time to really enjoy it, Keith did manage to make the most of his final days.

We talk about how important community is, and how having friends who let us be ourselves make the journey back into the light bearable. We also talk about how and why we laugh in tough moments, and how healing it can be to take a step back from the immediacy of a loss and point out the ridiculousness of the human experience.

Check out Keith's Podcast, KEITH PRICE'S CURTAIN CALL and revel in his love and experience with the NYC theater elite.


May 17, 2017

In this episode, Jordon talks to fellow comedian Geno Bisconte. 10 years after losing both his parents to cancer Geno reflects on how lucky and grateful he is to have had the upbringing he had, and the support system that continues to sustain him. We talk about how important it is to laugh at the darker sides of life, and how going through a loss of this kind of magnitude broadens the human experience, and actually makes you more complete.

To find out more about everything Geno, check out his website and follow ALL the Links!

May 2, 2017

In this episode, Jordon welcomes back to the podcast, Magician, Clown and all around Showman Nelson Lugo!

Nelson originally sat down with Jordon in episode 20 to discuss the issues surrounding the death of his father and his grandmother.

Now he's back after having put together a new one person show that ultimately ended u being more about his mother, much to his own surprise.

We also talk about the loss of the Big Apple Circus and Barnum And Bailey, and what will replace it as The Greatest Show On Earh. (could it be this show?!)

Find out more about what Nelson's been up to and when he's putting his show up again at

Apr 11, 2017


In this special episode, Jordon sits down with comedian and fellow podcaster Chris Calogero!

Chris' roomate Amy (also a comedian) committed suicide several years ago, which prompted him to start a podcast of his own, talking to other comedians about death, depression and loss. Jordon and Chris have a lot in common in the ways in which they have processed their grief, and are both making strides to start honest conversations about some of the heavier topics that crop up in life.

We talk a lot about just how healing it can be just to talk openly about issues related to grief and loss, and how gratifying it can be to actually create comedy out of the darkess.

Chris's Podcast is called "Mourning Coffee Podcast" and it can be found on iTunes HERE

Follow Chris on Twitter and follow the Mourning Coffee Podcast on Facebook!

Also, dont forget to check out Chris' interview with Jordon in this special Swapcast here!


Apr 3, 2017

In this episode, Jordon sits down with comedian Allan Fuks to talk about the death of his best friend Sam to suicide.

We talk about the difficultly of acceptance, both of who you are as a person, as well as the realities of life, and how the ever-evolving nature of these concepts impacts how we deal with trauma.

Allan has his own podcast called "The Week in Sex" - check out all the goings on here.

Follow Allan on Twitter here!


Mar 16, 2017

In this episode Jordon sits down with Comedian Julianna Meagher to talk about the death of her sister to cancer 4 years ago. We talk about how often we have to comfort others when they are faced with our truths, and how empowering it can often be to actually make others uncomfortable.

We also talk about the pressures of being the only sibling left, and how managing ones parents can be overwhelming on ones own.

Follow Julianna on Twitter @JuliannaMeagher

Feb 27, 2017

Chris Monty joins Jordon in the studio to talk about the loss of his mother, and about the ways in which he has managed to keep her in his life.

We talk about spirituality, and the line we walk between faith and WANTING to believe, as well as the real value of a dime.

As it happens, Chris' mother, along with both of her sisters were diagnosed with cancer, and survived their initial bouts, prompting them to create the Three Strohm Sisters Foundation, a non-profit that is dedicated to continuing the fight against cancer.

Learn more about the Three Strohm Sisters here!

Follow everything Chris Monty at his website,

Feb 13, 2017

Christian Finnegan has lost both of his brothers - his younger brother to heart failure at the age of 19 in 2001, and his older brother to a heart attack at 36 in 2008. In this episode we talk about how one's role within a family change after the death, and how difficult it can be to maintain an identity that is tied to a life that no longer exists.

We also talk about how to remember the full person that died, and not just an idealized version of who they were.

Follow Christian on Twitter @ChristFinnegan

Check him out online at

Jan 26, 2017

In this episode, Jordon sits down with Comedian Jen Mutascio, who lost her father to stomach cancer 17 years ago. In that time she's had to learn how to get along without her guiding force. We talk about how doing material about heavy topics have to be VERY funny if they are to be successful, and how honesty on stage is always unmistakable.

Follow Jen on Twitter @JenMutascio

Dec 29, 2016

In this episode Jordon sits down with Grammy nominated musician Stephan Crump, who recently released an album called Rhombal as a response to the loss of his brother to cancer.

We talk about the importance of the sibling relationship, and the twists and turns they often take, and the power of forgiveness when all is said and done. We also talk about how music can represent so many different things.

The music itself is quite moving, and the track at the end of this episode is Pulling Pillars (Outro for Patty), the song that we discuss in our interview.

From Stephan Crump on what the album is about:

"Rhombal is not about sadness. much more, its a commemoration of a death well-confronted, of a spiritual evolution i witnessed in my brother during our last days together, and of how close we left each other after what had been, for many years, a very troubled relationship."

Follow Stephan on Twitter @Crumbletones

To find out more about the album go to Stephan's website here!

You can purchase the album Here (on stephans website)

or HERE via iTunes.

Nov 21, 2016

In this episode, Jordon sits down with bartender Alissa Atkinson, whose brother James died three years ago in a freak motorcycle accident.

We talk about the difficulty of denial versus acceptance, what it means to have a vested interest in wanting to believe in otherworldly energies, and how to cope with stupid questions and/or comments that people make.

You can visit Alissa behind the bar at Precious Metal in Bushwick most nights,

Precious Metal is located at 143 Troutman St in brooklyn

Follow them on Twitter @PreciousMetalBar

Follow Alissa on  Instagram @AlissaMayNot

Oct 31, 2016

In this episode, Jordon sits down with Author Robert Goor to talk about his recently published book, "Dear Andrew . . ."

Rob was an engineer in the robotics department of GE in 1988 when his 8 year old son Andrew was struck and killed by a truck right in front of him. In the ensuing aftermath, Rob struggled to maintain his relationship to Andrew, and began writing letters to him as a way of keeping his connection and allowing him a space to express his deepest emotions.

We talk about the importance of helping others can be, and about how impactful is is to share ones own story as a way of giving others hope.

Find out more about the book HERE


Oct 13, 2016

In this episode, Jordon sits down with author Dr. Meryl Ain, who, along with her husband and brother, have written a book called "The Living Memories Project; Legacies that Last." The book is a collection of personal stories from people from every walk of life, and many types of loss represented, describing the ways in which they honor their lost loved ones, and carry their spirits forward with them.

We talk about how important it is to continue our relationships with those we have lost, and especially how helpful and healing it can be to reach out and help others along in their own journeys towards acceptance and hope.

A Living Memories Project Journal has also been recently published to encourage you to find ways to tell your own story.

Purchase the book from AMAZON HERE

CLICK HERE to go to the Facebook Page.

Follow her on twitter @DrMerylAin

Sep 28, 2016

In this episode, Jordon sits down with comedian and actress Brandy Rowell!

Brandy lost her mother when she was 22 just after graduating college, and her father 7 years later, just as she was coming into her own as a performer and as a person.

We talk about the importance of community, and the need to connect with people who not just let you be yourself, but encourage the best of you to come out.

Sep 14, 2016

Eddie Brill is a comedian, actor and writer who has spent the better part of his life making people laugh. He is also no stranger to grief and loss. Eddie has lost a sister, a brother, his father and his step-father, as well as numerous friends and colleagues.

In addition to having spent 17 years as the warm up comedian (and eventually comedy talent coordinator) for the Late Show with David Letterman on CBS, he appeared on the 4th Annual Russell Ferber Foundation Comedy Fun!draiser, (I'm well aware that my families annual benefit show is not nearly on the same level as Letterman, but there are many fewer spots available.)

In this episode we talk about the accumulation of loss, and of love, and the notion that the show must go on.

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