Eddie Brill is a comedian, actor and writer who has spent the better part of his life making people laugh. He is also no stranger to grief and loss. Eddie has lost a sister, a brother, his father and his step-father, as well as numerous friends and colleagues.
In addition to having spent 17 years as the warm up comedian (and eventually comedy talent coordinator) for the Late Show with David Letterman on CBS, he appeared on the 4th Annual Russell Ferber Foundation Comedy Fun!draiser, (I'm well aware that my families annual benefit show is not nearly on the same level as Letterman, but there are many fewer spots available.)
In this episode we talk about the accumulation of loss, and of love, and the notion that the show must go on.
In this episode, Jordon sits down with fellow Native NY’er, podcaster and comedian Chris Faga.
Chris’s mother died of a drug overdose when he was 16 years old, and his father died of a stroke only a few years later. We discuss how hard it is to lose your parents at such a young age, and how it can prepare you for other losses down the line.
We also talk about the death of his cousin Lisa, and how important it is to remember and share the funny stories of those who have passed.
Check out Chris’s podcast High Society Radio at http://newtrashcity.com/
Follow Chris on Twitter @HSRadioShow
Well, after a much needed break, I am back.
In this episode I explain myself and my absence, and hopefully also share a few stories you may relate or connect to.
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In this episode Jordon sits down with his good friend Joey Richardson, a comedian and musician, who wrote the theme song for this podcast.
Joey's sister Lisa died of a brain tumor almost 10 years ago now, and he has since struggled to make sense of his artistic identity along with his personal identity.
Some of the things we discuss in this episode are survivors guilt, sibling rivalry, and the power of denial as a coping mechanism.
Check out Joey's web series Gustavo and Friends at http://www.gustavoandfriends.com/
Also check out his other video's at https://www.youtube.com/channel/UClQ7P6BVLTH5CIEmaor_JhA
In this episode, Jordon turns the tables on Dr. Heidi Horsley, who has interviewed Jordon on both her Radio and TV shows several times.
Dr. Heidi Horsley is an internationally known grief expert, licensed psychologist, social worker and bereaved sibling. She co-hosts the award winning television series and radio show, Open to Hope. She is an Adjunct Professor at Columbia University and in private practice in Manhattan. Dr. Heidi speaks throughout the country, on finding hope following trauma and tragedy.
Find out more about Heidi and all the good work she does at http://www.opentohope.com/
Follow her on twitter https://twitter.com/opentohope
In this episode, Jordon Sits down with Bill Williams, Bill an accomplished director, theater teacher/acting coach, leader of creativity workshops, freelance writer, and addiction advocate. Bill's son William died of a drug overdose on December 2nd, 2012, and since that time Bill and his wife have pledged to do all they can to raise awareness about the disease of addiction and help to erase the stigma of talking about it.
In addition, Bill was also one of MY theater teachers when i was in high school, so this was a very full-circle moment that I had interviewing him.
Read about what Bill is up to at http://billwilliamsblog.blogspot.com/
and Find out info about his "Where There's a Will" Fund at https://www.facebook.com/WhereTheresAWillFund
In this episode, Jordon sits down with author and sibling grief expert Elizabeth Devita Raeburn. Elizabeth was just 14 years old when her brother Ted died of aplastic anemia, a severe immune deficiency disorder. Many years later, Elizabeth wrote the book that she needed to read -The Empty Room: Surviving the Loss of a Brother or Sister at Any Age.
I have talked at length about Elizabeths book on several episodes of this podcast, and I recommend it to anyone who is dealing with sibling loss.
Her new book, The Death of Cancer is out now as well.
Check out her Amazon authors page to purchase either book!
Learn more about Elizabeth at http://www.devitaraeburn.com/
In this episode, Jordon talks with Comedian Ken Krantz, who recently lost his good friend Mandy to cancer. Ken reflects on his friendship with Amanda and her family, as he continues to process the loss after only finding out that she was sick days before her funeral.
We also discuss the power of doing truthful dark material, and how difficult it is even for those who are among the best at it.
Ken helped create a fund to help others with cancer afford their medical expenses, and he produced a comedy benefit show that he hopes to continue annually. Stay up to date by going to Take a Deep Breath and Laugh in Memory of Amanda B. Plawner
Follow Ken on Twitter @KidKrantz
Jordon and Harmony have been friends for nearly 10 years, having met at their local Compassionate Friends sibling group shortly after the death of Harmony's sister Hannah. Having just finished a recent run of her One-Woman-Musical "Afraid of Karma," Harmony reflects on the impact of doing the show, and what she's learned in the 10 years since her sisters death.
Find out more about her show at http://afraidofkarma.com/
Follow her on Twitter @HarmonyJupiter1
In this episode Jordon interviews Jeff Glasse, comedian and entrepreneur. Jeff's mother died of cancer when we was just 21 years old, and nearly 20 years later, his brother Joey met the same fate.
We talk about how experiencing grief early in life helped prepare Jeff for the losses he would experience as an adult.
We also talk about the importance of acknowledging and being grateful for having had certain experiences in the face of also being devastated by the knowledge that we will never have them again.
In this episode, Jordon talks with Filmmaker Molly Gandour, who was just 10 years old when her 14 year old sister Aimee died of childhood leukemia. 16 years later, working in the film industry, Molly decided to make a documentary about her own discovery and ultimate ownership of her own experience of the facts that lead to the death of her sister. The film, Peanut Gallery, follows Molly back to her childhood home as she begins to talk with her parents very openly about what happened. The film has intimate conversations at home, at the dinner table as well as family therapy sessions, and features the kind of archival footage that most families have.
In this interview, Jordon and Molly cover a lot of topics related to sibling grief, as well as what it's like to tell ones story publicly.
Follow Molly on Twitter @PeanutGallery94
Check out the trailer and get up to date info on the film at PeanutGalleryDoc.com
In this Episode, Jordon sits down to talk with Comedian, Musician and Professional Poker Player Clayton Fletcher!
Clayton's father Ashton Fletcher, himself a well known and respected pillar of the Jazz community passed away 7 months ago, leaving behind a family that, although deep in grief, is also bolstered by having had such a magnanimous and joyful leader for so long.
We talk a lot about the structure of comedy, and how important it is to be present in one's life, regardless of the twists and turns that it takes, and to always be full of gratitude for the things that we have had.
Follow Clayton on Twitter @ClaytonComic
Find out more about the Ashton Fletcher Scholarship fund and when the next benefit show is at http://fletchermusicschool.bandcamp.com/
Happy 2016! In the same way that episode Zero was an introduction to the podcast, this interlude episode is just a year end review of the work I've done thus far, and an eye towards the future.
Thanks everyone for listening, and for continuing to help me expand my audience.
Follow me on Twitter @WheresTheGrief
In this episode, Jordon sits down with comedian Joe Fernandes, who is still reeling after the death of his father earlier this year, at the age of 65.
We talk about how important it is to have people in your life you can talk to about it, as well as the double edged sword to working on material about the loss to an audience.
Follow Joe on Twitter @JoeFernandes75
Listen to his podcast, "Now What" with Mike Gaffney here:
In this episode, Jordon sits down with magician and showman Nelson Lugo!
Nelson's father died only about a month before this frank discussion about his life and career. We talk about how different losses bring about different types of grief, and about how important gallows humor is to those in the eye of the storm.
Even though it's a very recent loss, I was really amazed at just how much insight and levelheadedness that Nelson has exhibited so early on in his journey, and how much humor and wit he brings to everything that he does, be it life, death, or magic.
Find out more about Nelson at http://nelsonlugo.com/
Follow him on Twitter @NelsonLugo
In this episode, Jordon sits down with singer/songwriter Craig Greenberg. Craig's mother died a little over a year ago after a long battle with cancer. We discuss how difficult watching your parents fade away can be, and how hard it can be to work on expressing the feelings that come up artistically.
Learn more about Craig and how to listen to his music, or see him live!
Follow him on Twitter @Craig_Greenberg
In this episode, Jordon talks with comedian Brian Baron. A divorcee and a father, Brian met a woman named Ellen, and he describes it as "a match made in heaven." Shortly after the two of them decided they would move in together, Ellen was diagnosed with an aggressive cancer, and Brian found himself in the outer circle, not quite part of the family, watching his life with her fade away. We talk about what it means to be on the outside, and how hard it can be to claim any voice from that vantage point.
A quick technical note, this episode had some issues in the recording, so please do your best to overlook the moments of static that i was unable to edit around.
In this episode, Jordon talks with comedian Ajai Raj, whose best friend Jacob took his own life 6 years ago. We talk about the dangers of depression, and how strongly suicide can affect the people beyond just one's family. We also talk about who is allowed to grieve, and how difficult it can be to incorporate ideas about death and grief into comedy.
Ajai has a podcast of his own as well called "Notes From a Void." Subscribe here!
Follow him on Twitter @SaintAjaiRaj
In this episode Jordon sits down with comedian Geoff Kole, whose mother died of cancer when he was still in high school, and whose father died more recently, if you consider 10 years ago recent.
With all the ups and downs that come in the grief process, Geoff has seemingly taken everything in stride, and truly exemplifies the notion that the show must go on.
Learn more about Geoff and where to catch him live at http://geoffkole.com/
Comedian Evan Williams lost his brother to CF (Cystic Fibrosis) and his mother to complications from Lyme disease a year later.
The roller coaster of grief that life puts you on, coupled with Evan's own struggles with sobriety make for some serious insights into why we do what we do.
Evan is about as open and vulnerable as any of my guests have been, and I can't thank him for coming on and discussing his life as frankly as he does.
For more info on Evan, check out his website http://evanwilliamscomedy.com/
Follow him on twitter @ItsEvanWilliams
This episode features an in depth interview with Alan Pedersen, Executive Director of The Compassionate Friends (TCF) the self-help support group that Jordon's sibling support group is a part of. Alan lost his daughter Ashley in 2001, and in the despair he was feeling, he re-immersed himself into his musical career, and began writing songs that reflected what he was going through and what he wished he could say to his daughter.
Shortly after selling CDs of his music at a Compassionate Friends national conference, he began playing his music at local chapters around the country.
For more info on The Compassionate Friends go to http://www.compassionatefriends.org/home.aspx
There you can find the nearest local chapter to you via the chapter locator, as well as info on upcoming regional and national conferences.
For more info on Alan and how to buy his music, go to http://thegrieftoolbox.com/products/best-alan-pedersen or you can find him directly on iTunes at
In this episode, Jordon sat down with fellow comedian and native Brooklynite Beth Maria to talk about what her process has been following thea death of her best friend Alex to suicide.
Beth reminds us that it is never just the immediate family that feels the pain of losing a loved one, even whilst having internal debates with one's self about whether or not it's ok to feel grief when you're "just a friend."
Her final thoughts on the matter of suicide and depression are quite poignant and worth taking to heart.
In this episode, Jordon sits down with Comedian and Actor Angelo Lozada!
A veteran of the NYC comedy scene, Angelo talks about the death of his brother David after a long battle with aids, although the conversation also features a lengthy discussion about the loss of a handful of comedians who have died in the past couple years, and the toll that has taken on the comedy communit at large.
Follow Angelo on twitter @AngeloLozada66
Check out his podcast at http://kollidetv.com/watch/get-some
In this episode, Jordon sits down with Comedian Ray Gootz, whose mother and aunt, both of whom he lived with, passed away within a week of each other. This episode was recorded only about a month or so after thier funerals, giving Ray a much closer detailed account of the weeks leading up to his mothers death.
While this episode is heavy at times, Ray ultimately has a positive message about the future and an optimistic outlook for what comes next.
Follow Ray on Twitter @RayGootz
I sat down with fellow comedian Nick Whitmer, who lost his step brother Sam 4 years ago. Nick and I talk about what it was like to gain a new brother and best friend only to have him die in a car accident just as they were both becoming adults. We also talk about how comedians deal with emotional issues, and how we each deal with the darker thoughts that we have.
Follow Nick on twitter at @NickWhitmer